An Anxious Girl In A Scary World

Guilt McGuilterson should be my new name. I might legally change it, in fact. Kidding! I just have to say, I am the queen of being guilted. It’s honestly so easy to guilt me into anything. I’m always so concerned about being “the good friend” or the “good employee” or the “good girlfriend” that I let people take advantage of my “good” side. Throughout my entire life, I’ve been easily persuaded and I have been the perfect target for people who want to take advantage of me. I rarely say no. I rarely stand up for myself. I always get myself into a situation I would have liked to avoid. I always end up doing things for people that I didn’t want to do. I always end up going places that I didn’t want to. This was mainly prevalent in my workplace and with my partners. At my old job, if someone called out and I was off that day, I would be the first person they called. Certain times, I didn’t mind being called in because I liked having the money but after a while it became so often t...

Hey! During the last session with my therapist she recommended that I attend a support group for my codependency and found a meeting for me. Having social anxiety, the idea of attending a meeting with a bunch of strangers terrified me so I did a little research and I found out that they held online meetings! I can't even tell you how much of a relief that was for me. I signed up that day and also attended my first online meeting. I didn't really participate because I was nervous but I observed how the others interacted in the group. Everyone was welcomed and the moderator asked if there was anyone who would like to share. A couple of people responded and each took a turn telling the group about what they were going through at the time. There was no judgment. It was just an open, safe space for everyone to share their stories. I will be attending my second meeting tonight. Perhaps I'll share tonight. Wish me luck! I know it's tough feeling like you are going thr...