Take Care

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The reading from my book today was about caretaking- taking care of someone else's needs above your own. In doing so we neglect ourselves. 

It got me thinking... I do this a lot. In pretty much all of my relationships. My relationships with my friends, my partners, and sometimes my coworkers. I am constantly looking out for them. I know it's not always a bad thing to look out for friends, that's what in turn makes us a good friend. We need to be careful though because we can forgot to take care of ourselves in the process. I'm learning that there is fine line and it's not always clear where that line is. 

In my recent romantic relationship I've noticed that I've spent so much time taking care of my boyfriend that I've become careless with my self. I had put so much time, effort and energy into him that I forgot to put time and effort into myself. If he needed money, I'd give him money, full well knowing that I wouldn't have much left for myself. If he needed clothes, I would go out of my way and get him clothes. We would eat where he wanted, we would go where he wanted to go, we would do what he wanted to. At the time I thought that it was okay to do all of that because I wanted to make him happy but now I see that I wasn't happy. I didn't always want to do what he wanted or go where he wanted. I wasn't being true to myself and that was also not taking care of myself because I was ignoring my wants and needs.

Taking care of yourself doesn't always just mean taking care of yourself physically, like showering and eating healthy, but emotionally and mentally as well. Take today or tomorrow or any day you feel and take care of yourself. For me, a part of taking care of myself is doing my daily writing and reading. If you feel like you haven't written in a while, take some time to do that. Start reading a book, or take a long hot bath while burning your favorite candle. Treat yourself to that yummy gelato place you've been dying to go to. Do something you've neglected doing for too long. 

TREAT YO' SELF!
With Love & Support,
Anxiety Girl - xoxo

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