Setbacks

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Evening Y'all!

I had a minor setback a couple of days ago and another one today. Honestly, I'm a little disappointed in myself because I've made such good progress and it's a little disheartening. But, I am going to make the conscious decision right this second to not let this deter me from my path of recovery. I am going to let this be a learning experience. I'm going to get over this obstacle and emerge on the other side just a little bit stronger than I was.

Too many times I think we’ve allowed ourselves to become so discouraged by a choice we’ve made that we give up because it seems so much easier than having to admit to ourselves we’ve made a mistake. Instead, I think we should own that. Hold ourselves accountable for the mistakes or the decisions that lead up to this point. We can’t keep going through life always blaming others or blaming things for our actions. We are all faced with a choice one way or another and no matter what choice we make there are consequences to each.

Next time, If I’m faced with the same choice, I now know better and I shall pick the latter. I am aware that picking the choice that I did, will only lead backwards. I know deep in my heart that that’s not the direction I want my life to go. I want to move forward and I can’t do that If I allow myself to make the same mistakes time and time again.

With that being said, I’m turning my setback into a comeback. I will continue to fight and to learn and to grow. I will continue on my path.

Don’t be discouraged my lovely people! Keep moving forward!

With Love & Support,
Anxiety Girl - xoxo

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