Positive Outlooks

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Good Evening!

My job has been recently implementing some changes and they were just put into effect last week. Corporate has decided to get rid of certain positions and alter the pre-existing ones. My position was one of the ones that were eliminated. Ugh. So, unfortunately for me, I am no longer a manager. They've kept me on though so it's not like I've lost my job. I was demoted. 

It's got me feeling a type of way and I'm trying very hard not to take it personally because the reality of the situation is that it's not personal. It's business. This change affected all employees of the company who held my position in other stores, not just my store. I've had to remind myself of this like 8 billion times today.

I'm finding that I'm really dwelling on the negative a lot today. Dwelling on the negative is one of those pesky automatic thoughts. It's so hard sometimes to break the habit of doing that especially because I've been doing it my entire life. I've become more aware of them over the years so I'm quicker at catching on to when I start to do that. 

The negative things that I kept finding myself thinking about are basically minor, insignificant little things like: no longer being able to check how our numbers are, approving discounts, canceling transactions, opening and closing the registers, opening and closing the store, disarming/arming the alarm in the store, opening the back door for shipment, etc.. Those things really aren't all that important. Yes, it's going to suck getting used to the fact that I will no longer be able to do them but in the grand scheme of things, it's really not that bad.

When I consider the positives that came out of this, it almost makes it completely worth it. The positives are: Same pay, less stress, less responsibility, no more weekly 8am manager meetings, guaranteed 25-30 hours a week, set schedule. 

Like I said, it's going to take some getting used to. I've been in a leadership position for the last three years and I've gotten good at it. Being demoted sucks and it hurts. But again, I know it's not personal. I've complained for weeks now about the amount of stress that I've been under and the pressure that's being put on us managers. I've said many times that I miss the old days when I wasn't a manager because everything seemed so much simpler then. Then, all of a sudden, here comes the realignment!

Today's Lesson:
Don't dwell on the negative. Find the positive!

With Love & Support,
Anxiety Girl - xoxo

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